I remember when Friday used to mean happy hour and heightened senses. Now it means pajamas, early baths and under-stimulation (in a good way).
I’m not going to lie, I found these words in a draft I started and thought, “I don’t remember writing this, but it is so very true.” As I lay awake at 2:00 a.m. with a sick baby, all I can do is think about how much life has changed. What joy it is to be surprised in life, to know that you will never get today back and you can only do it once! I have thought so much about that the last few days. If I woke up and documented everything that happened in one day and looked back on it in a few months, would I feel the same way I did about finding the first words of this post in my draft folder? Would it all seem new and unfamiliar to me? Would I remember this day or would it simply be a day washed in the waves of the sea of days?
Since the beginning of 2019, I have seen a reoccurring quote posted several times. It is a variation of the same idea.
For some reason, this hits me in my core. In a world where each day can feel like just another day to conquer in order to get to that next day off or that next thing to look forward to, this quote stops me in my tracks. I don’t want every year to be the same. I don’t want to “fake it till I make it.” I want to fumble and struggle. I want to be emotionally and physically drained. I want to feel the high of happiness that I never expected and be surprised. How often in life can we say we regretted something? I never want to regret anything again. I want to take each thing the day throws at me and conquer it.
If you haven’t figured it out, this is a kind of pep talk for myself. Feel free to use it or add to it as you see fit. See, I have big dreams and goals. Goals are sometimes scary and intimidating. I am working on not letting my fear get the best of me. So here we go, I am going to share my goal. I am going to write it down here for all eyes to see.
My goal for 2019 is to start writing my novel.
Okay, that wasn’t so bad. All the how’s, when’s and why’s will have to work themselves out later. Right now, my target is to conduct a research interview/meeting once a month until June. I hope to gather useful info for possible characters and plot during these research periods.
So, this year will not be the same as last year. It will definitely not be the same as next year. I encourage you to look ahead and decide how you will make this year different from last year. Have a plan, take action and enjoy all the bumps and hiccups along the way!
Stay tuned. I will share progress here!